democraticqueen.

                       _{SHE’S STARING, EYES WIDE, HEART BEATING TOO FAST — it’s incongruent given the setting. She’s in the one place she felt the safest, at home ( both due to present company & the beauty surrounding them. ) She’s revisited this moment many times, it brings her comfort to know that they had once been ( nearly ) happy, that things hadn’t always been difficult ( or perhaps this is the moment everything changed, where their endings were engraved in stone. ) She sees him, Anakin Skywalker, young & happy, eyes full of life & as beautiful as the blue sky ( no, it wasn’t even comparable! & no hideous flecks of GOLD, no burning. ) He’s rambling as if he’s got no care in the world & here, he didn’t. Heart clenches as she’s reminded of a different time ( no, not different, their future, one she had CRUELLY been shown. Hands touch the place the ghost of another had wrapped around what felt like moments ago. She had died. He had been lost. ) She loves him, of that she may not have been certain in this moment ( or perhaps she had known all along ) but after seeing what they had, their love ( & the DESTRUCTION that ensued ) she knows without a single doubt that she, Padmé Amidala, loves Anakin Skywalker.}

               _{& it’s because of that love that she needs to stop him from returning it, from going down the path he would go with her ( it hurts, but this is better, she wants better for both of them. ) Back stiffens, relaxed pose replaced with that which a QUEEN was raised to learn & face is wiped of all emotion — a cool, calm mask. ❛ — I’m sorry I was distracted. ❜ Not a lie but also gently pushing him away ( though she finds such joy in seeing him talk so enthusiastically about whatever he wishes! ) ❛ I have a lot on my mind. ❜ & she is MOURNING the loss of a life — of what could have been but can’t.}

                                   _{fingers nervously fiddle together ,   holding between them a grain of sand.   rushedwords abandon parted lips   :  he’s sure blabbering ,   rambling about inconsequential topics that haveflowed through conversation.   her presence is intoxicating.   it’s enough to smother his mind ,   twist his tongue so he cannot speak.   a strange magnetism she owns   ;  supreme influence over him ,   until he feels nothing more than a boy.   once powerful and skilled padawan ,  reduced to ashes in the face of adream.   OF SUCH BEAUTY.   gaze remains low ,   avoiding his object of desire ,   notes hiding true turmoil that brews beneath his skin.   ❛   I HATE SAND.   it’s coarse and rough and irritating   ;   and it gets   —   ❜   head raises and speech is interrupted ,   worry finding a place inside blue eyes.   what minutes ago had been content features are now tainted by   —   fear  ?   body tenses ,   searches for danger but finds none,   only the calm hum of the force.   them and the sea stand in peace   —   a place so incredible should pose no threat.   so he asks ,   hand moving towards her arm   (   how he wishes to touch her !  not now ,   however.   not when she looks scared   ;   lost   )  ❛   PADMÉ  ?   ❜   easily she regains composure ,  quickly she replaces her expression with a regal mask.   but her feelings are a storm ,   and brown irises tell adifferent story.   pretending not to notice ,   ignoring the hurt at her dismissal ,   he cocks a brow.   never shaking the concern off his tone   :   ❛   are you sure you’re alright  ?   ❜}    

                                                        _{bright sky has gained a pink tinge as he walks the temple halls ,   feet aimlessly carrying him after another successful mission.   and though he’s never considered coruscant home ,   surprise rises   (   along with relief   )   at the comfort it brings.   noise draws the padawan’s attention   :   compels him to curiously follow such a familar sound.   inside the training room she stands ,   the sight of a dear friend twists his lips ,   forming a humorous smile.   relaxed frame leans against the wall with arms crossed   ;   hopes to catch her off guard.   ❛   i’m gone for a few weeks and you’ve already lost a lightsaber  ?   obi - wan would be disappointed.   ❜} 

_{❪   @darkinherheart  ♡’d  !   ❫}